" To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best day and night to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.
- E.E. Cummings
I never used to fight myself the way I do now.
I will be towing away at my normal social interests when out of no where I hear his voice, his crawling words that penetrate more than my ears but my heart, and his slimy tactics to make me feel worthless even in the worthiest of situations, I will feel unfound, uncared for and out of touch, with myself, the world, and God. My voice and his used to become one, they had the same tone, same expectations, same exit signs, but when God pulled my thrifty, riddled heart out and brushed off the fingerprints from the world, he showed me the truth.
I used to believe that I was a problem, a pity hangout, a second option, and a unlovable girl. Its amazing what God's love can reveal.
I am still fighting, but I can't think of a better person to be, but myself in the lord.
-M
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